February 6, 2011

Dear baby, 
Two weeks ago today I found out I was pregnant. It was a Sunday and I was doing some grocery shopping and had an inkling to pick up a pregnancy test. I took it home and saw a faint pink line. I wasn't sure if I was just wishing that there were two lines or if there really were! Dell was at the office working late, so I asked him to pick up a digital test to be sure. It didn't take long for the test to say "YES" and we were both so excited! We just laid in bed talking about all the possibilities and saying how much we couldn't believe it. I didn't sleep much at all that night, or that week, for that matter ... too much to think about, worry about, be anxious for and just pure joy! We called first thing the next morning to make an appointment with the doctor and we got in Wednesday morning. We asked the nurse questions and went to the lab to have blood drawn. The next day we anxiously awaited the phone call from the doctors office. At around 4 p.m. they finally called to say I was pregnant and my numbers were normal for four weeks (233). The next day we were traveling to Tulsa so that Dell could go to the Oklahoma City Thunder game with my brother-in-law, Chris, and two of Dell's friends. He told the guys at dinner and I told my mom and sister at Starr's house. They were both so surprised and happy - they cried and hugged me. We told the rest of our family and our closest friends the following week and everyone can't wait to meet you! Your dad and I have organized space in what will be your nursery, talked about names and dreamt of you already! I've also been reading pregnancy books your aunt Starr gave me and enjoying my daily emails telling me about what you're doing, how big you are, what is growing, how I might feel, etc. So far, it's only been a few weeks, but it's been a wonderful experience. You are our little blessing and we are so grateful to have you in our lives, even if you are only the size of a sunflower seed :) It's amazing that only two weeks ago, I was living my normal life, and the second I found out I was pregnant, my every thought and action are now centered around you and making sure you're okay. It's you who I want to protect and care for from now until the very end. I'm officially a mother! I love you!