February 26, 2011

Yesterday we had the D&C surgery. It wasn't something I wanted to do, but I couldn't imagine the mental anguish of trying to do it on my own. The physical pain is something I can deal with. But, today was the first day I woke up with no baby in my belly. And, even though I know you weren't "okay" for the last few days, you were still there, still mine. And now you are gone and I feel empty. I want a purpose again. I want a baby. I wanted you.