May 11, 2012

I was supposed to start my period earlier this week, but with my irregular cycles, I just assumed I was late. I couldn’t sleep and woke up around 4:30 a.m. and decided to take a test. I only had one test left and I thought why not? When you go through infertility, it’s crazy how your mind wanders and how you think every single thing through. I thought about waiting to take the test on Sunday morning for Mother’s Day, but didn’t want the disappointment, so I decided today would be the day. I took the test, washed my hands and rinsed my face off and then checked the test.

Pregnant.

NO WAY! I’ve seen that before, but there’s been a small, very important word in front of it every other time. NOT. Not Pregnant. Not this time. This time there was no “not.”

I freaked out and walked into the bedroom with the test in hand. I flipped the light on and with my hands shaking, I showed Dell. He was so excited and just hugged me. He said he knew I was going to take a test, but didn’t want to say anything just in case. He’s really been so great about this. I’m lucky to have him.

I waited and waited for my sister to wake up so that I could tell her. She cried and hugged me.

Now I’m exhausted and have to keep this a secret all day. I called the doctor and told them the news. I love my new doctor and the nurses there. His nurse was so excited for me and asked if I could come in that day for a blood test. I went in that morning and waited all day for the results. I knew they closed at 3 and they hadn’t called yet. I called at 2:55 and begged for my numbers. She said they are good, somewhere around 240. 

The next morning we went to the Farmer’s Market with my mom and sister. There was a little girl walking by and my mom said “That’s how your daughter is going to look Audrey.” I said, “we’ll see in 9 months.” It took her a while to figure it out. She wasn’t getting it, but when she finally did, she started crying and was so happy. 

Sunday the 13^th was Mother’s Day, so we took Dell’s parents out to lunch after church. We bought his mom a card that said Grandma and she figured it out right away. So much fun!

I went back to the doctor on the 14^th for additional blood work to make sure my numbers had at least doubled over the weekend. They were over 1,000, so things are looking good. 

Dell and I are going to the doctor on Monday the 21^st to make sure everything looks good and possibly listen for a heartbeat. I still can’t believe it. Maybe that will make it more real.